Wednesday, 24 October 2012

Four Snake Bites

God convicted me of sin last night.
I knew something was wrong. 
That missing of His presence is always a give-away. 

So as I went to bed, I asked Him to show me my sin and where to read. He immediately lead me to Psalm 73. This is what stood out to me. 

“I envied the wicked. They have no struggles, their bodies are fit and healthy, they are free from the burdens common to man, they are not plagued by human ills..” “This is what the wicked are like, always carefree, they increase in wealth.” “All day long I have been plagued. I have been punished every morning”. 

I confessed my sin. 
One of envy and self pity. 
One of resentment that my life was often difficult, while other's lives seemed easy.


I knew there was more sin.
His back was turned.
I could feel the distance in the relationship.
I fell asleep and dreamed I was bitten by a poisonous snake four times but I let it bite me.
I knew what the dream was about. He often speaks to me in dreams. I awoke and asked for the other 3 sins.

Immediately I was led to Isaiah 53:2-7

“He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows and familiar with suffering”. “Yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him and afflicted”. “He was oppressed and afflicted yet he did not open his mouth” “yet it was the Lord's will to crush him”.

And I realized I was caring more about what other's thought of me, than I did about God and His Holiness. I feared their rejection.

I cried “cut it out Lord!” 
He said “it will hurt.” 
I said “I don't like pain but do it anyway or I will keep doing this evil thing. Circumcise my heart and cut away the flesh!”

"Where next Lord?"

He immediately led me to Isaiah 49:4

“I have labored in vain and spent my strength for nothing”.

I confessed my sin. To me it had seemed this journey of difficulty, affliction and rejection was all vanity. That it was making no difference, having to endure this suffering and hardship! I read on. There was a promise to go with the affliction and suffering.

“I will make you a light” 

“I will comfort and have compassion on my afflicted ones”. 

It hurts Lord I cried!
This suffering!
This affliction!
This rejection!
His reply started in verse 15


“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget you, I will not forget you! See I have engraved you on the palms of my hands, you walls (read problems) are ever before me. Your sons hasten back..all your sons gather to come to you..you will wear them as ornaments”.

Three down.
One to go.
It took awhile to get up the courage to ask. I let dishes and children fill the time, until eventually...

"Where now Father?"
 “Ezekiel 33.” 
"Ezekiel 33!"
 "Oh God why Ezekiel 33?!"

I hate Ezekiel 33, because it require so much of me!
The standard is too high.
Only you can enable me.
Only you can give me the courage to point out the other man's sin.
How can I do that?!
How can I do that in love?
Why must their blood be on my head?
Why must I be held accountable for not pointing out another's sin?!

And His answer came to me in James 4:17 


“Anyone then who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins”. 

It's so much easier when it's general and not personal. To tell another whom I know and love and have friendship with, that what they are doing is sinning..that is hard. They will hate me I fear. Yet scripture says it is a sin not to, that I also am out of balance when I think like this. This is His mark in the sand. Give me great wisdom I prayed Father, to do this in love, to speak your very words.

So I spoke what he told me to say – drunkenness is a sin! 

Ephesians 5:18 “Do not get drunk on wine which leads to debauchery. Instead be filled with the Spirit”. 

This concept is repeated over and over in scripture, yet I live in a country where it is not called sin. Where it is revered not reviled.
In 1 Peter 4, Peter calls it pagan behavior.
He includes it with lust, orgies and detestable idolatry.
God help your people to change.
Help us to change our nation.
To address this sin so prevalent here in your church.

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